They say everything in life happens for a reason.
Anger? Betrayal? And a lifetime of Sadness?
Is that ever a justifiable reason for this emotional turmoil?
Sometimes, impact lasts longer than you think.
It changes your view on the world and the way you perceive it.
It leaves you cold, cynical and stone-hearted.
And you find yourself losing faith in people and in relationships.
When people step in to save your world, you believe they will be there forever.
More often than not, you convince yourself that it is the truth, though it may not be.
But when the cynical side of you takes over, you do not see possibilities where there are none.
When you sense a dead end ahead, you don't harbour hopes of a new beginning.
So not letting people in, saves you the trouble of letting them go.
This means that may be everything in life does happen for a reason.
Some people step in, to teach you to let go.
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Goddess of Nonsense
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life
Life is pretty ironical.
Sometimes you meet people who are so similar to you that it leaves you spellbmound. You automatically expect them to becoe an important part of your life. But no matter how close they get to your heart, they still linger along the periphery, unable to cross the impermeable wall that leads to the inside.
And sometimes you come across people who seem so different that you'd never give them a second look. Yet Destiny, Karma and perhaps a Superior Force somehow brings them into your life. You find opening up, layer by layer until you stand in front of them as the person you truly are only because they somehow managed to permeate through the impermeable wall into the forsaken territory of your heart.
It is in the brief moments you spend with these people that you feel like life wholly and completely makes sense.
Sometimes you meet people who are so similar to you that it leaves you spellbmound. You automatically expect them to becoe an important part of your life. But no matter how close they get to your heart, they still linger along the periphery, unable to cross the impermeable wall that leads to the inside.
And sometimes you come across people who seem so different that you'd never give them a second look. Yet Destiny, Karma and perhaps a Superior Force somehow brings them into your life. You find opening up, layer by layer until you stand in front of them as the person you truly are only because they somehow managed to permeate through the impermeable wall into the forsaken territory of your heart.
It is in the brief moments you spend with these people that you feel like life wholly and completely makes sense.
iHATE!
I'm feeling really really negative today...so here's a blog about the things I hate about my life~!
So much to hate ! so little time! sigh
- I hate being lectured about how irresponsible I am and how my room is always in a mess!
- I hate being the mess that I am!
- I hate how I'm so unfocused right now!
- I hate how I should be serious about my project and I really don't give a f**k
- I hate how I don't know where my life is going.
- I hate how my best friends move away!
- I hate how I can't take the next flight to go see them!
- I hate how I keep trying to find an incentive to go to college but I can't
- I hate how I don't write in my diary anymore!
- I hate how my articles are supposedly not college related!
- I hate how CJ wont fucking pay!
- I hate the fact that I started writing only so that I could have enough money to fund a course I want to take, when I could have found i better way of earning it!
- I hate how I have to share my room with someone I can't stand!
- I hate being lectured about how I have no social skills and I don't talk to relatives at parties.
- I hate being lectured about how I sleep late everyday!
- I hate having to change the bed covers everyday!
So much to hate ! so little time! sigh
Sometimes......
Posted by
Goddess of Nonsense
on
life
Sometimes, you don't intend for it to happen, but it just does.
Sometimes, you are too engrossed in your life and you don't seem to realise when it happens.
Sometimes, it's better to not have certain people in your life and you are more than willing to let go off them.
Sometimes, you know it's your fault and it's better to let go, than to hurt them.
Sometimes, you can't help the fact that you just don't care anymore.
Sometimes, you can't help the fact that people don't care about you anymore and there is nothing you can do to make them stay.
What do you do when you know they still care? And no matter what you do you can't stop caring either.
Things however refuse to go back to being how they used to. Fact is, they never might go back to being the way they used to.
People walk in and out of your life all the the time. You walk in and out of peoples' life all the time. It is one of the most natural things in life. So why does it seem so unnatural this time?
Why does it feel like no matter what I do, I may never be able to ease the pain completely or fill that empty space inside of me.....
Sometimes, you are too engrossed in your life and you don't seem to realise when it happens.
Sometimes, it's better to not have certain people in your life and you are more than willing to let go off them.
Sometimes, you know it's your fault and it's better to let go, than to hurt them.
Sometimes, you can't help the fact that you just don't care anymore.
Sometimes, you can't help the fact that people don't care about you anymore and there is nothing you can do to make them stay.
What do you do when you know they still care? And no matter what you do you can't stop caring either.
Things however refuse to go back to being how they used to. Fact is, they never might go back to being the way they used to.
People walk in and out of your life all the the time. You walk in and out of peoples' life all the time. It is one of the most natural things in life. So why does it seem so unnatural this time?
Why does it feel like no matter what I do, I may never be able to ease the pain completely or fill that empty space inside of me.....
Confrontations.....
Posted by
Goddess of Nonsense
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Like I said earlier, I avoid confrontation because I feel that if people are insensitive enough to do what they did, there is absolutely no point in trying to explain their mistake to them. Unlike you, they do not think of it is unethical. That's the reason they did it in the first place.
When I sent that mail. I wasn't sure what to expect. I've always thought of him as an insensitive person. So while I was sure he'd say sorry, I wasn't sure if he would mean it. At the same time, I wasn't sure he'd be willing to change.
His reply took me by surprise. Not only did he apologise, but he said the most genuine sorry he ever has. He said he wants to change; and not just because I told him to! And he accepted every mistake he's made, without making any excuses! The best part is that he promised things would be better from now on...
And I did see the change in him. Too bad it lasted for only a day. I know he wants to make things 'normal' again. I also know that I do mean a lot to him. As of now atleast. But why is he always so demotivated?! Why is that the effect of my words never last more than a day?!
You know I'm so tired of this drama. It keeps repeating itself day after day. I'm tired of making him realise his mistakes and watch him go back to doing the same things. Right now all I want to do is give up on him and forget he ever existed! But the truth is, I don't know if I'd be able to survive myself......
Friends Forever?
To most of you getting your heart broken in love is probably one of the worst experiences in life. It is the exit of someone who meant a lot to you. And once you've made place for someone in your heart and your life, letting go of them is probably one of the most difficult things; and you find your happily ever after turning into a happily never after.
But according to me, they are not the only relationships that break you when they fall apart. What about your friends? Is it really possible to say good-bye to them? Is it really possible to accept that they are not a part of your life anymore? According to me, losing them hurts just as much, if not more. And you know what hurts even more than that? When it's not your friend but your best friends involved.
You know what is stupid about girls like me? Apparently, 'happily ever after' is not the only mistaken belief we hold onto. There is also 'best friends forever'. And you know hat happens when we make friends with those who dont believe in the same principle as you? That's right. You get your fragile little heart broken.
So that my friends is the story of my life. These friends I talk about were so close to me that I couldn't even imagine life without them. I couldn't imagine getting through half day without talking to them. I couldn't imagine that that there would be a day when they'll have no idea about what is going on in my life. And while I had them, I believed that no force in the world could take them away from me.
When I look back I can hardly believe the kind of faith I had in my friendship. The truth is I barely know anything about their lives anymore. And what's worse is I don't know the persons they have turned into. When I look at them, I crave to see glimpses of who they used to be. And I manage to dissapoint myself every single time.
They say- what doesn't break you makes you stronger. Well I know that it has affected me deeply and made me feel more helpness and miserable that I ever have. But at the same time it has made me realise that so may be all friends are not going to be there forever. I still love them a lot and will always be there for them when they need me. Till then I'm going to stop making place in my heart for those who don't have place in their heart for me :) .
But according to me, they are not the only relationships that break you when they fall apart. What about your friends? Is it really possible to say good-bye to them? Is it really possible to accept that they are not a part of your life anymore? According to me, losing them hurts just as much, if not more. And you know what hurts even more than that? When it's not your friend but your best friends involved.
You know what is stupid about girls like me? Apparently, 'happily ever after' is not the only mistaken belief we hold onto. There is also 'best friends forever'. And you know hat happens when we make friends with those who dont believe in the same principle as you? That's right. You get your fragile little heart broken.
So that my friends is the story of my life. These friends I talk about were so close to me that I couldn't even imagine life without them. I couldn't imagine getting through half day without talking to them. I couldn't imagine that that there would be a day when they'll have no idea about what is going on in my life. And while I had them, I believed that no force in the world could take them away from me.
When I look back I can hardly believe the kind of faith I had in my friendship. The truth is I barely know anything about their lives anymore. And what's worse is I don't know the persons they have turned into. When I look at them, I crave to see glimpses of who they used to be. And I manage to dissapoint myself every single time.
They say- what doesn't break you makes you stronger. Well I know that it has affected me deeply and made me feel more helpness and miserable that I ever have. But at the same time it has made me realise that so may be all friends are not going to be there forever. I still love them a lot and will always be there for them when they need me. Till then I'm going to stop making place in my heart for those who don't have place in their heart for me :) .
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